Mood: Tired
SOC: "I am no Killer" by Thursday

::Scene open to a dark Sanctuary Kim looks for gun under couch...finds 9mm::

What the hell? what am I suppose to do with this damn thing?

:fishes...fishes...::

Aha! ::Finds Revlover:: something with class! ::6 trigger pulls later:: Good Empty ^-^ ::puts to temple and starts to click:: Yeah something I've wanted to do for sometime......man I'm tired as hell.....:: reclines looking at the ceiling...click click:: no body worry I don't have an active desire to die...but so far life is boring the hell outta me and zapping my energy so I don't have an active desire to live. Mostly too lazy to anything but what's being handed out right now.

I'm really tired of ignorance....and stupidity...and posers....and incompetence...tired of a lot of things........::stops clicking and looks at gun sits up quickly and throws it out a stained glass window::

More than anything I'm tired of this anger I feel...anger just beneath the surface because presenting any dissatisfaction in this house is unacceptable. I hate fake laughing and fake smiling and fake cheerfulness but its all I seem to do anymore......fuck....::lays back down:: I feel sick and poisoned....I'm poisoning myself.....so much anger so much frustration...so much sadness....::sits in darkness emotionless tears sliding....:: I wish...I wish...God I don't know what I want anymore....just...I wish things were better somehow......I wanna....I wanna...go home...wherever that is....